I'm going to die

The idea of dying fascinates me.

I was sitting outside in the garden the other day watching my fat tubby cat trying to catch a squirrel and failing miserably (because it was too fat) and then I remembered my grandpa.

How he was when he was alive and how he was before he passed away.

Two completely different human beings.

One was caring, dependable and had more discipline than a Japanese soldier. 

A person who would go out of his way to find me a sturdy piece of wood and some ropes to make me a swing just because I wanted to feel like ;

 "perempuan main buaian dalam cerita bawang merah bawang putih tu".

The other one was a person who couldn't drink a single drop of water, a person who was too tired to carry himself up to go and pee or to pray. A person who would look at me and not even realize that I was his granddaughter. ( And I'm like his favorite okay! sheesh)

When he was alive and healthy, I would sit next to him on the couch and he would ask me to list down the pillars of Islam and I would just mutter a few to keep him entertained before slowly easing myself away from the conversation just so I could focus on what Meredith was doing in the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy.

Even though he could tell that I didn't have any interest in hearing what he wanted to say (obviously I was a huge fan of the show and probably part Satan ) he kept on talking anyways. Mainly because he enjoyed chatting and also because he knew I would listen despite giving the less than enthusiastic response.

My grandpa would tell me how one day we would all die and end up in the dark grave all alone with only our deeds to accompany us.(That's how we Muslims roll)

 He would wonder out loud about what the afterlife would really be like and he would always end his one way chatter with the same thing.

He felt scared.

He was scared of what will happen after he dies. He was scared that his deeds will not be enough.

And now he is dead.

And one day I will die too. 

It's so fascinating to me.

I can't freeze myself.
 I can't send myself to Mars like the NASA experiment.
I can't break my soul into tiny little pieces and make Hocruxes and hide myself so Harry Potter can't find me.
 I can't pay people to keep me alive artificially forever and ever there is NO POSSIBLE WAY. (try and google this crap up, you will be disappointed)

Someday, a bunch of ladies will be washing me one final time, wrap me up in white cloth and place me in front of people who will then pray for me.

Someday a group of men will lower my neatly wrapped body in the ground, cover me up in soil and then I'll be buried in there forever and my mum won't be able to save me.

My grandpa was a religious person who would never intentionally miss a prayer. He was brave and kind and giving and yet he was scared to face death.

Where the heck does that leave me

Engagement and Port Dickson

It finally happened.

The moment we were giggling about in between classes in high school. That one topic occasionally creeping  into our conversations in the car on the way back from what used to be our single ladies mamak sessions.

My best friend got engaged!

Yup. Our dear old Juliekins scored her dream guy and is now officially the fabulous fiance of Mr. Lootify!

Looking like a Princess!

Aww

Pictures taken by Haniff Hazim Photography. 

A week after the engagement Binxy and I decided to kidnap Juliekins for our own mini vacation. 

It was to celebrate the engagement, her belated birthday, passing her finals and becoming a doctor, the ending of my chambering period in the legal firm (yes I'm done!) and to rescue Binxy out of her working slump.

We told her we were taking her to Terengganu for a trip to be one with nature and to eat Budu and it was going to be a long drive.

We lied. 

We brought her to Port Dickson instead.

We planned this trip a long time ago and when it finally arrived, it was safe to say that Binxy and I were extremely excited.

We kept on feeding lies to her and told her we were taking her to this fabulous glamping site with a lazy river and fancy tents with fairylights. 

It was kind of funny because she hates camping and anything to do with fluttering insects or nature.

To make it seem more believable we assured her that it would be an acceptable glamping site which would suit her style, with proper toilets , one where she wouldn't have to dig out a hole in the ground to shit in.

I look pregnant here but that is also okay.

It was really hot.

I guess we got a little caught up with our lies and the plan sort of backfired because when we arrived at the actual surprise destination which was Lexis Hibiscus in Port Dickson, she looked rather disappointed for a moment upon realizing that we were not going glamping afterall. 

HAHA.

Sorry bud!

That aside,the hotel was amazing!

I've been to Grand Lexis before which was also in Port Dickson and I personally thought that was  rather neat with the private pool and the set up of the chalets making the guests feel like we were part of a private beach community.

Lexis Hibiscus was just as breathtaking!

The room we got had two huge beds which was hilarious because the three of us could fit quite comfortably on just one bed if we wanted to but hey good for us. 

There was also a mini pool and a freaking sauna!!

 Jakun mode onz la what else.

Okay I should probably have taken a picture before we messed the place up eh.

Yeah I know, the pool was really tiny and the water was probably up to my waist and we even started laughing when we first arrived looking at the mere cute little size of it, but it was super fun regardless and was definitely big enough for three girls to at least rotate around with the floaties.

Unfortunately, we were unable to stay in the chalets on the beach but it turns out to be for the better because we got a room on the tenth (or eleventh) floor and it was overlooking the sea and we were able to see the formation of the hibiscus made from all of the chalets below.

I should really learn how to take better pictures

It was beautiful especially at night!

It felt like Vegas.

That evening we went to the market about 10 minutes away and bought yummy food to bring back to the hotel for dinner.

Tasted like childhood.

 All and all it was an extremely enjoyable trip. I'm so glad we were able to have that one ultimate sleepover.

It felt like I was back in high school, dancing away to good music, making lame jokes and eating good food with not much to worry about. I definitely miss that.

So extremely blessed :)

Ps. Congrats again Juliekins Bud!

Penang Trip

A few months back we made a spontaneous trip to Penang!

Binxy wanted to show her old friend Lenno around Malaysia and I needed an excuse to fly off to another state, so a trip was planned (all by Binxy. I was merely there for emotional support) and off we went!

Binxy, Lenno and Janice (fake names because why not)  rented a car and left earlier on Friday and I took the plane that night and met them at the airport because poor old me needed to work during the day.

We stayed at this reasonably priced hotel which later on became a problem because they had lousy management system and tried to get us to pay more than what was agreed.

 I can't remember the name of the hotel and for good reason because  we are not planning to ever go there again. 

Future customers of the Lousy Hotel do not fear though! 

Janice constructed a rather long and on point review about the hotel so if you are a responsible person who would read the reviews before booking cheap but suspicious looking hotels then you are safe.

The trip was suppose to be a short weekend vacation so we were determined to squeeze in as many food and places as we could.

Anyway, here are some of the places we went!

1. Penang Hill

Beautiful place located in Air Itam about 6 kilometres west of the city centre of George Town (according to Wikipedia haha). 

The boys wanted to hike all the way up whereas Binxy and I well,  we preferred the good ol' choo choo train. 

Long story short since it was getting a bit late to hike up we decided to take the train hehe.

That was probably my third time going to Penang Hill but it was my first time being there at night. If you ever feel like making a trip there I would definitely recommend going at night. 

You can patiently wait for the sun to go down and for darkness to slowly creep through the sky and donate your blood to some hungry Penang mosquitoes all at once.

Also as a bonus, look at the magical view!

Before the sun went down, we also saw a sign which says Monkey Cups a few kilometres away. 

So we got all excited and thought it would be an actual monkey probably playing with a cup or something along those lines only to realize a few minutes too late that Monkey Cups are actually periuk kera as in ...

This

Oh well.

2) Snake Temple

Left pretty quickly when we saw snakes hanging about freely on branches just above our heads. 

Before the horror

3) Clan Jetty ( I think)

We went to this market on this jetty thing but I can't remember the name of the place so I'm just going to assume it is Clan Jetty.

Interesting market with cute little souvenirs. 

I would have enjoyed it a bit more if the weather wasn't excruciatingly hot. 

But it was, and at one point I couldn't even think or see clearly anymore because I was just concentrating hard on how not to melt.

You would think after living in Malaysia with our sunny weather my whole life I would get used to the heat right. Well nope. Not the Penang jetty heat anyways.

Heat aside, we still managed to place our assess on the frying ground long enough to take a decent picture thanks to Binxy's persuasive skills hee.

4) Batu Feringghi Beach

We got to build sand castles which I like. 

And then they wanted to play card games which I didn't like. Haha..

5) Kek Lok Si 

Was definitely worth my money.

It was a huge temple with so many different parts to explore and you get to climb all the way up to the towers and just take in all the different details of the temple's design.

Also, at the bottom part of the entrance you get to buy kangkung and feed the turtles!! 

No monkey cups so this will do

We managed to squeeze in a lot of places and tried loads of yummy food during that short trip. But uploading the pictures I got on my Go Pro takes effort which is too much to ask for on a Sunday night. 

Besides, I think I've spammed enough for now.

All in all it was a really fun trip! I'm so happy and  thankful for mini getaways and new friends. I want to hug my cats now.

Night!

Kitty's Bachelorette

So Kitty is getting married!

This lovely lady right here!

 This week to be more precise.

I feel like it was only yesterday that we were sitting on each other's beds in our Kuantan room talking about boys, relationships and our doubts with this whole marriage institution. But nope. 

That was 5 years ago!

Crazy how fast time is moving.

So anyway, we ( myself, Meowie, and the rest of Kitty's lovely bridesmaids) got  together to plan her bachelorette. 

We knew we wanted it to be pink, flowery, girly and cheap  reasonably priced.

 I don't think I have even been directly involved in a wedding before, nor have I ever been a bridesmaid  so you can just imagine the jakun level I was on when we took on the task of planning a bachelorette.

Bought most of the stuff at this wonderful party planning place somewhere near Pavillion. 

Conveniently I can't remember the name of the store. I swear something is squeezing the juice out of my brains because I can barely remember anything anymore.

 Should start drinking those nasty pati ayam brand thing again.

So yeah! 

Meowie and I went shopping with a rather tight budget because lets face it, most of us are not working and are constantly broke. But no worries, made it work. 

We had a little too much fun shopping for the decorations and gifts. Had even more fun picking out  cringe-worthy lingerie for her, but no pictures there for err....reasons.

Bought her a feather boa. 

Didn't get the pink tiara because cash was running low :(

We also bought some veil type fabric to make Kitty her very own pink and purple veil!

If you have no talent whatsoever when it comes DIY , I highly recommend this video if you want to make easy poofy veil haha.

After hours of glue gunning, sewing and swearing with Meowie.

Considering we bought and made everything one day before the party itself, I think we did a pretty decent job! 

The party was suppose to be at this Flora terrace place in KL but due to some miscommunication, we had to move it to Acme. 

Which is pretty decent too because we got our own private space at the very corner of the restaurant.  

With the Bride and her lovely childhood friends!

All in all, I think everything went rather smoothly and the main important thing is we got a few giggles from watching Kitty perform a bunch of ridiculously embarassing dares ( all in the name of love buddy boo) and as a bonus we even made her cry tears of terharuness so yay for that! 

Kisses for the future Mrs! 

Ps. Still can't believe she will be married by the end of this week.

Travel Part 3

It is 1.40 am and I am currently having a mental breakdown thinking about my future.

Instead of feeding my brains with more negative thoughts, I shall just resume Part 3 because I made a promise to nobody in particular that I would finish this travel post and to do otherwise would be sinning and sinners will go to hell.

5) Zagreb

This time we stayed in a rather happening part of the town where the nightlife was extremely amazing because we were surrounded mainly with bars and cafes with live music.

Love the ceiling

There was a bar right under our toilet window.
We could hear people chatting as we were spitting into the sink

 I like how they isolated the toilet like right at the back part of the bathroom. Everytime you have to go, you will feel like you just got a time out or something and you need to repent all alone in isolation.

Nightlife

Had the most amazing hot chocolate there too.

All thick and chocolatey. Gah

About a few blocks away from the place we stayed in, there was a morning market and a place you could take the trams to go places. 

We would go there in the mornings and I would have to yank mum away from the insanely beautiful looking fresh flowers and fruits.

Seriously look at that

One morning we took the bus to Lake Plitvice which was the most magical place ever. Seriously.

But before that here is a picture of the bus station. Tadaa

I've never been to a bus station in Malaysia  ( i think) so here is one in Croatia muehehe

Anyway. The park. Yes.

When we first entered the park I was like, MasyaAllah...Indahnya ciptaan Tuhan..

Okay fine no. 

It was more like  "Oh my god!!Maaaa look at that!" 

And then I grabbed Mum's hand and elbowed my way through the crowd of angry tourists to get a better view.

My blurry non professional photos will not do justice as to how absolutely breathtaking that place  is. I recommend going there yourself at least once before you die or if you are like me now, with no money, then you can just Google better quality images.

Water so clear

View from above

There were a lot of different routes or courses you could choose, depending on your level of stamina and what you wanted to see. 

Some courses will take you to a boat ride , and some will take you to the waterfall.

Wish we had the whole day to spend there to explore the whole park but that was not possible because we had to take our bus back to the place we were staying in Zagreb.

If you ever want to visit here, I recommend dedicating a whole entire day just for the park because there's just so much to see!

Magical cave where I almost fell and broke my neck.

Some overly friendly ducks. Or swans. 

My favourite place in the whole wide world  to this date.

Alright I'm done.